Astrology is one of the key tools in my mental health arsenal that has provided me language to process my experiences of madness as well as my more subtle daily intuitions and impulses. For instance, moving along my healing journey, I have becoming increasingly aware of how much I gravitate towards the uncomfortable, the unknown and unknowable, the taboo, ostracized, and stigmatized subjects. It takes more effort for me to exchange superficial pleasantries than it is be vulnerable, go deep, and have meaningful conversations. I’d rather break bread with strangers and share our deepest fears, most pressing curiosities, biggest regrets, and most weighty aspirations than talk about the weather. I am a compulsive oversharer. Sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me for being so eager to talk about things that are controversial and unconventional, so willing to talk about the most intimate aspects of my life like my mental illness and ever evolving sexuality, politics, and spirituality. As an artist I love a finished product, but I am more interested in sharing my process, my journey, my trials as well as my triumphs. What’s with that? Well, my Scorpio North Node in the 3rd House has provided me with some compelling clarity.
The sign of Scorpio is about diving into deep, black waters of the unknown and discovering what treasure lies at the bed of the ocean. In the 3rd House, this energy is channeled into the realm of communication, learning, and interpersonal relationships with family, friends, colleagues, and community members. This astrological placement validates my pursuit of writing, research, and art-making, particularly in the realm of racial inequalities, birth work, and mental illness. It helps explain my comfort with discussing topics like death and altered states of consciousness. Sometimes I feel isolated for wanting to talk about things that some would consider uncouth. However, I continue to exercise the muscle of vulnerability in using my voice because I know my words can create more trust, awareness, and understanding about the experiences of people who have been silenced.
The point of this Scorpio North Node 3rd House energy is transformation and ushering in change requires bravery to speak our truth and communicate what most compels us. The more I inhabit the world with my propensities and with the words I desire to share, the more I have to fight my inner demons that try to silence me. Despite the lies that demean the value of my contributions, when I speak, more often than not I learn that someone needed to hear or read my word as well as see someone they identify with reflect their experiences. Sometimes I feel like I am speaking into the void, but usually someone steps out of their silence to acknowledge my message because it resonates with their experience and it creates the opportunity for connection.
I hope as I continue to write this blog, I will strengthen the muscle endowed by this North Node energy pointing me in the directing of my calling. Especially as I continue my journey in academia, it feels tempting to want to retreat to my South Node in Taurus proclivities for comfort, simplicity, and safety. But I’ve found that I actually feel more aligned and at ease when I take the risk in sharing my truth. At least astrology has confirmed that there is nothing wrong with me. The way I think and communicate is just one of the many traits that makes me Queer. And this was not my choice; it’s by design and I give credit to the stars!
Do you know your North Node? If not, you can find out what is here.
How do you make sense of your compulsions and calling?
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Nadia Naomi Mbonde 
Hello there Nadia,
I am magnanimously appreciated of your vulnerability in sharing your story. Today, I came across your blog by searching for some insight into what having a ‘3rd House North Node in Scorpio’ meant. I did not expect to have a radically, and plutonic, transforming read! I’m not sure that even blog or read correctly identifies this for me because this made me feel seen, heard, and understood. This was the vision I needed today to witness in my own psyche, how I have been blinded and driven towards a career in professional soccer, by my own guilt grief and fear based beliefs. This helped me put my full chart into a way that I can make peace with. Thank you so much. When I came across your psyche shifting insights like, “Astrology is one of the key tools in my mental health arsenal that has provided me language to process my experiences of madness as well as my more subtle daily intuitions and impulses…I am a compulsive oversharer. Sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me for being so eager to talk about things that are controversial and unconventional, so willing to talk about the most intimate aspects of my life like my mental illness and ever evolving sexuality, politics, and spirituality…Sometimes I feel isolated for wanting to talk about things that some would consider uncouth. However, I continue to exercise the muscle of vulnerability in using my voice because I know my words can create more trust, awareness, and understanding about the experiences of people who have been silenced.” Wow, wow, wow, to me was a nice fresh and clear clarity!
I am leaving a reply because I too have had to battle my inner demons that communicate so loudly they stifle and silence my own expression, on the field-in my other passions-with friends-and with family. I have felt for a couple of years that this placement has been creeping into my life and bringing about powerfully positive transformations. It has helped me be brave in the face of fear, to dive head on into the truth of my childhood, to see how all the guilt-grief-fear belief’s that I was still holding were driving my life towards a career that wasn’t in line with my Scorpio North Node, and 3H NN purpose.
( I am a Leo rising, 1H Mars in Virgo, 4H Venus and Pluto in Scorpio/4H Jupiter in Sagittarius, 5H Sun and Neptune in Capricorn, 6H Mercury and Uranus in Capricorn, 7H Saturn in Pisces with a 8H Moon in Pisces … I now love to share my chart with others so that they can see, feel, and understand me in a way beyond the eye, word, or touch )
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Thank you for your generous comment! I am glad this post was helpful 🙂
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Thank you for this! I have the same placement (NN in scorpio in the 3rd) and have had a great deal of trouble leaning into it as well as you have. I know the depth is what I crave but I also retreat from it at the same time. I’m having my exact reverse nodal return now and looking just to better understand this axis and how to make this a productive transit- thank you so much for this!
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I am glad this was helpful, Jessica! I’m in my reverse nodal return as well. Perhaps I will make a blog post about how I am integrating and navigating this.
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Hi Nadia! I have this same placement conjunct my moon and Pluto. These past two years have been excruciating for me in all the same regards, but profoundly transformative/healing.
I’d love to talk if you want! I’m a 9th house gem sun/Mercury, Virgo rising (to emphasize the former.) Edward Snowden has that gem sun Scorpio moon combo as well and it really feels like I’m here to do some whistleblowing on the left around spirituality/anti-capitalism.
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