Maintenance is Harder

I realized that I was in the maintenance phase of my recovery when the drama disappeared and life started slowing down. I would have off days like any regular human being, but I did not know how to cope with them. I was so used to dealing with distress that I felt like I couldContinue reading “Maintenance is Harder”

Virtual Emotional Labor, Zoom Fatigue & the Ethics of Care

Recently, I have been reflecting on compensation, energetic exchange, and value as it pertains to my work in this digital pandemic age. This has become a pressing issue for me given how much I devote my whole self to it. I first felt the emotional weight of my work when I presented at Cambridge’s SocialContinue reading “Virtual Emotional Labor, Zoom Fatigue & the Ethics of Care”

Valentine’s Day Astrology

When I started learning about astrology, I was astounded by the way holidays corresponds with astrological seasons. Halloween is during Scorpio season, highlighting the hidden, the scary, the mysterious, the taboo. Thanksgiving is during the optimistic and idealistic energy of Sagittarius season in denial of the darker elements behind the holiday (genocide!). Christmas during CapricornContinue reading “Valentine’s Day Astrology”

Healing Journey: Depression & the Fear of Fatigue

I have a complicated relationship with rest. For several years, I refused to let myself relax in bed and binge Netflix because this felt too akin to depression. During a major depressive episode in college, I binged 11 seasons of Grey’s Anatomy in one summer sitting in alone in my bed in darkness from morningContinue reading “Healing Journey: Depression & the Fear of Fatigue”

Experiments in Ethnographic Poetry

The further I progress with my PhD, the more I realize ways I can bring my whole self to my work. As an undergraduate in the Mellon Mays program preparing me for graduate school as a minority in academia, I developed the false assumption that academics are supposed to present themselves in a particular way.Continue reading “Experiments in Ethnographic Poetry”

Spoon Theory & Bipolar: A Conversation with Rebecca W. Morris

My favorite thing about social media is the ability to find kindred spirits and connect with people you would have zero chance of actually meeting in real life. One such person is Rebecca W. Morris, a disabled and chronically ill artist who lives in Spain. She reached out to me about being featured in herContinue reading “Spoon Theory & Bipolar: A Conversation with Rebecca W. Morris”

Decarcerating Perinatal Mental Health & Reproductive Care

This blog post was inspired by my participation in IDHA‘s December 2020 “Decarcerating Care Fireside Chat.” I am grateful to Jessie Roth, IDHA co-director, for facilitating a rich conversation with my fellow interlocutors Jess Stohlmann-Rainey, Dustin Gibson, and Stefanie Lyn Kaufman-Mthimkhulu. When I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, my first thought is that I wasContinue reading “Decarcerating Perinatal Mental Health & Reproductive Care”

PSA: Perinatal Bipolar Support Group

I am incredibly excited to announce the debut of a new support group which I will co-facilitating called Bipolar Support for Perinatal Moms & Birthing People hosted by Postpartum Support International (PSI). Since not all people with wombs identify as women or mothers, this group welcomes all birthing people (parents who have carried and birthedContinue reading “PSA: Perinatal Bipolar Support Group”

An Ode to All the Drafts I’ll Never Publish

ear Unfinished Blog Posts, This post is dedicated to you — all 83 of you patiently waiting on the back end of my WordPress site begging to be released into the world. I’m sorry to be the barer of bad news, but that day will never come. A few years ago, I would have proudlyContinue reading “An Ode to All the Drafts I’ll Never Publish”

Thinking with Dyane Harwood: Birth of a New Brain

Although I lived with a bipolar diagnosis years before my own crisis with mania and depression during pregnancy, I was intrigued by both the familiarity and foreignness of postpartum bipolar.* As I began to do more research, I stumbled across Dyane Harwood’s memoir Birth of a New Brain: Healing from Postpartum Bipolar Disorder (2017). TheContinue reading “Thinking with Dyane Harwood: Birth of a New Brain”